These
Rash ego
Wars.
Love has
Changed
Me.
___
I can't walk,
Love,
With you.
Not if you
Have your
Head
Screwed
Looking
Backwards.
___
Perhaps
You will
Realize
The futility
Of
Making points
When
Love has
Permanently
Slid
Out.
___
I thought
We'd
Grow,
We'd be
All-encompassing.
Ah.
The things I
Wanted
While you
Looked
Away from
Me.
___
Where's the sense
In that?
When you calculate
The slights
At the very outset
Of our entwining
Stories?
___
I must've
Dreamt
You.
You were
Too
Perfect.
___
it's a pity,
cher,
that you cannot
let go
of what was
and incessantly
prove a
what can
happen
when you've lost
what
is.
___
i'm tired
of
fingers pointed,
declarations
made,
unnecessary
trifles,
unwarranted
timing,
our limitless
apologies,
our constant
regret,
my useless
faith in you.
i'm tired
of you
and your
ego.
...your love's
tragedy.
___
if i couldn't
convince you
then,
i cannot
ever make
you erase
your
need to teach,
your need to
slap me back.
and
i cannot be
trampled
upon repeatedly,
dearest..
not when
i've already
shot myself,
not when
you still
want to
pull that
same
trigger on
me.
___
My
Failed words,
Futile feelings.
All
Slip into
Infinite silence.
16 comments:
Warning: The following comment is totally out of context of the post.
Ready or not, here it comes:
Click on my name.
Yeah, I can only show you the door.
Interpret whatever way it pleases you. You were going to do that anyway, with my advice or without.
While you are still on the trip, remember what the Uri-Geller-inspired kid said - 'There is no spoon'.
And the only way to bend 'the spoon', which does not exist, by the way, is to bend yourself.
More than a mouthful for one day? I must have eaten something fiery for breakfast.
Excuse me. I must go now.
Mais oui, l'amour. Strange, strange, the irrational i.
great expression. poets are seers.
Its so dark n sad :(
I liked these lines the most.
"I must've
Dreamt
You.
You were
Too
Perfect"
wow. I have no words, actually, to do this justice.
it is a pleasure reading your words, even when they are heartbreaking.
rash ego wars. three words that literally shatter me with meaning.
Truly a "look at reality"
love these :
These
Rash ego
Wars
and incessantly
prove a
what can
happen
when you've lost
what
is
your need to
slap me back
spine-chilling truth!
I can alsmost hear your boyfriend say: Me?
you're writing is so inspiring. reading you is like finding release for some unspoken feelings. and you are right, it's hard to love someone too caught up with the past. and how sad really that we never really learn and still fall for the same person over and over again.
CAROLVS - N'est pas? We can't let go of it..and neither can we live freely with it. Caught in the cage of an I.
Billy - Thank you. Yes, poets are seers..and many other things.
AmitKen - Was meant to be dark. So I'm glad it made its point!
endlessecho - :) I'm fine, thanks. Long time. I suppose you too are the silent reader.
small squirrel - Thanks. I'm truly happy that you think highly of what I've written. :)
transience - Don't they? That's the best way I could encompass it all. In as much a nutshell as was possible. Rest all follows.
It breaks you.
Blackempress - One has to face reality when wants somethng to last. We can dodge, play silly games, exchange ulterior words for only so much time. When you actually care for happiness and a togetherness which goes beyond the petty..you have to look at reality for what it is. And do what's to be done.
Atheistbishop - *grin* I can almost hear anyone say Me.
bismuth - Coming from you, this is high praise. And I'm truly honored.
We do get caught in the same old circle, but we have the power to change it. Like I was saying in my reply to Blackempress..it requires one to just stop runing around in the same circle and just face reality for what it is..for what it's saying. We all, when we want honest peace and happiness, have the capacity to change.
enembius - Because it has been kept raw.
Very cutting poem.
Very powerful title.
Very strong ending.
"My
Failed words,
Futile feelings.
I let them
All
Slip into
Infinite silence."
Jax - *grin* Thanks.
.:A:. - It always makes me smile when you say you like my endings. :)
Hey...How are things?
Seems like snippets of thoughts one thinks for days on end...randon thoughts which make sense only if one brings those snippets together.
There is a sense explanation 1)to one's own self, 2)to the lover, 3)the reader.
I cannot put my finger on it but something about this rankles me. For all it's sadness I cannot bring my compassion to it.Something holds it back...
I don't know...I see this immense anger festering behind these words.
--Ellipses M
Ellipses M - There is quite some controlled anger in it. You noticed it. :)
I'm fine, been a while since I saw you around here.
escalava - Welcome.
I really enjoyed reading your comment. It's always nice to know that someone has noticed the subtle impression a writer tries to make. This post, indeed, did move in different waves..showing various emotions.
I use the colors for many things, actually. Sometimes to depict the rawness of what I wish to write, othertimes when it's symbolic..sometimes to give it depth..there're many things that I do with color. I'm a visual person. And I derive alot of meaning from the impressions that images, colors etc can make upon me.
Hmmmm...
Perhaps
You will
Realize
The futility
Of
Making points
When
Love has
Permanently
Slid
Out.
Very true for so many relationships, not only man-woman ones! I am also one of those who "make futile points", to paraphrase your words. These verses are very true to life, a bit chilling in fact.
Phoenix Rises - Yeah, it's not just in a romantic relationship, I was, also, alluding to many other relationships that we all have.
We all need to constantly make points..to guard ourselves..afterall, we have been taught to protect ourselves first.
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