Simple as that

my mouth waters
when i see her smoking.

i trace my parched lips
with my thirsting tongue.

i wish i could blow defiant smoke
in your face,
i wish i could breathe your absolute disappointment
in desperate gulps.

and then
the cigarette butts are in our
pot.
you find stray ashes in
my hair.

i explain to you
the fire in my soul faded away,
i need this.