Abandonment

I believe in a God that has abandoned me. I cry in desperation unable to understand the reason for his revenge. Have I stopped believing? Have I too many unfulfilled promises I made to you? Have I committed a grave wrong? What could I have possibly done to deserve your cruel game? You've tortured me and tested me to my limits. I'm still hanging on. You've hung me out to dry, you've kneaded me in a world of uncertainty, you've cast your maliciousness upon me and I've weathered it not once doubting you. If only I can know what must I have done to deserve this. Please, redeem me from this shackled dream, this horrid nightmare. I'm desperate, in despair and weak.