I don't think the big decisions are the ones that mark my life. In fact, it was all the little ones that led me to the almost inevitable big decision. The decision to eat my friend's dosa everyday during lunchtime motivated me to stay back in India. I went on a whim to meet the newly appointed school counsellor in the 7th grade, mostly because all the kids were intrigued by her but no one had the guts to go talk to her. That whimsical decision paved my career now. I decided one fateful morning when the painters kicked us out of our own house and into our penthouse to create an ICQ account which got me to meet my first real boyfriend. I made the petulant decision that I absolutely must beat that arrogant girl in my psychology class by hook or by crook. Goodness, the way I ruthlessly abandoned my friends of the past and parties to study was quite something. I figured if I can write, why not put it up on a blog? If I'm blogging, why not check out these blogger meets? I met my next big boyfriend and a rather tumultuous series of relationships. Simple, small daily decisions got me gradually close to the love of my life. Meeting him for lunch or dinner? Should I text him? What movie are we gonna watch? I tripped, tumbled and hopped my way into his gigantic loving heart. I still remember going with my friend to this big international student seminar for only the free cake that was being offered. I went so focused on cake and came out with handouts about a scholarship. I curiously read them and ended up getting the funding.
They were all seemingly inconsequential decisions I made that, unbeknown to me, almost naturally led me to all the so called big things in my life. They could be random decisions, they could be calculated by fate, or they could've been the *blink* moments I had. That's why when I suddenly decide to turn left rather than right, pick the fruity yogurt instead of my standard or when I watch a movie for fun..I do it. You never know what will it lead up to. It certainly makes life more exciting.
They were all seemingly inconsequential decisions I made that, unbeknown to me, almost naturally led me to all the so called big things in my life. They could be random decisions, they could be calculated by fate, or they could've been the *blink* moments I had. That's why when I suddenly decide to turn left rather than right, pick the fruity yogurt instead of my standard or when I watch a movie for fun..I do it. You never know what will it lead up to. It certainly makes life more exciting.
1 comment:
in contrast, my life's a constant heartache in havin 2 choose between 2 equally big things dat must ultimately shape my life:)
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